October 30, 2004

Good Morning!

Hello everyone! It is the weekend! Thank the good Lord! It is time to close myself in and study. Yeehah!! I have been fussed at for not posting enough...and rightfully so. I apologize to everyone that has been just hanging on the edge of their seats to see what exciting tidbit I will come up with next. :o)
Seriously though, I am sorry to have neglected the site for so long.

Today I want to post about how we are supposed to treat one another. This is a subject that comes easy for some and not so easy for others. One of my children is so sensitive that he is always thinking of how his actions will affect other peoples feelings and my other son has to be constantly reminded by saying things like, "What would you feel like if someone said that to you?" Could it possibly be a genetic thing? I say that because one is adopted and they were both raised in the same atmosphere. Who knows? Maybe it is just the difference in personalities?

Anyway, the Bible says, Matt 18:21 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times?

Mat 18:22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.

and...Luke 6:35 But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and [to] the evil.

and...Eph 4:32 And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.

and Matt 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

and...John 13:34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

and...Lev 19:18 Thou shalt not avenge, nor bear any grudge against the children of thy people, but thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself: I [am] the LORD.

I don't know EXACTLY why I felt led to post on that, but I did...so I did. I hope that everyone has an especially blessed weekend.

Posted by Barbara at 03:22 PM | Comments (2)

October 14, 2004

Two Down Three to Go!!

I have been unable to post lately due to surgery, school, clinicals, and studying for "the test." I took the test that I was so worried about today and I made a 'C.' Many, many did not pass it so I am thanking the good Lord for my 'C.'

My surgery has been done and I am a new person. Other than some bothersome soreness and air bubbles that need to go away, I'm great! The flank pain is gone and as a bonus, the nagging dull backache that I thought was from a curvature in the spine is gone too. Needless to say, it wasn't that at all. I truly have so much to be thankful for.

Nursing school, teenagers, church, pets, a house, etc is a lot to keep up with so my posts have been so light...especially with a couple of surgeries added to my plate. I apologize for this and can only say that I hope life is kind enough to me to allow time to blog an entry a day...or at least every other day.

Tomorrow.....?? Come back and see!!! ;o)

Posted by Barbara at 10:26 PM | Comments (0)

October 10, 2004

For my special friends

"Portrait of a Friend"
Including my family friends :o)

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

Why GOD Gave Us Friends

GOD knew that everyone needs
Companionship and cheer,
He knew that people need someone
Whose thoughts are always near.

He knew they need someone kind
To lend a helping hand.
Someone to gladly take the time
To care and understand.

GOD knew that we all need someone
To share each happy day,
To be a source of courage
When troubles come our way.

Someone to be true to us,
Whether near or far apart.
Someone whose love we'll always
Hold and treasure in our hearts.


I prayed for you before we met,
Not knowing who you'd be.
I asked the Lord to send a friend.
One chosen just for me.

I asked that they'd be Godly,
With wisdom of His ways.
A friend to help and guide me
I the troubles of these days.

So often in life, we need someone
To listen while we talk.
Someone who will not condemn or judge,
But encourage us as we walk.

The narrow road we choose to follow
May sometimes make us stumble.
But to have a friend to catch our fall,
Teaches us to be humble.

When I asked the Lord to send a friend,
Though many came and went.
He gave much more than I ever asked,
For you are the friend He sent.

Posted by Barbara at 10:30 PM | Comments (0)

Missing Church?

When you miss church, do you really MISS church?

I am the type of person that likes to be at church every time the doors are open. I don't want to miss a service, a message, a blessing...etc. I want to go more, but my husband gets upset if I go to all of the ones I usually attend now and stay if they hold over. I'd like to sing in the choir, but he'd really croak if I went to choir practice, etc.

Anyway, I love our church. I have had to miss a few services lately due to my health problems and was unable to go this morning. I am truly missing church. I am trying to figure out how I can go tonight without causing myself too much pain. If I can't get myself to feel like going, I'm going to take time out to read some special devotionals or something and read my Bible and still dedicate my time like it should be spent. I realize though how fortunate that I am to have a special church like I have.

While I am counting my blessings, I'd like to say that I am also fortunate to have so many people to care about me. I have had so many phone calls, e-mails, and visitors from friends and family checking on me. Some even came and cleaned house and did laundry! My room...pre and post op was full too. :o) See? The Lord truly is good to me!

Posted by Barbara at 01:10 PM | Comments (0)

October 05, 2004


They found the problem!! I get to be relieved of my pain!! If I wasn't hurting, I'd dance a jig!!

I will be having surgery again this Friday. This time is isn't exploratory though. It is to remove the source of my pain. I will only have to have a laparoscopy and a very short recovery time. I won't even have to miss any school if all goes as expected! No more pain! No more whining! No more terrible, mind-fogging pain medications!! Woohoo!!

I can hardly wait! I can clean my house, wash my car, and so many other things that I haven't felt like doing and has just progressively gotten worse. Most of all, I will be able to concentrate on other things without having to try to get past the pain. Studying will be so much easier.

The Lord is good to me!

Posted by Barbara at 09:13 PM | Comments (3)

October 04, 2004

Alabaster Box

Today I wanted to share my daily devotional. It is about one of my favorite stories in the Bible....Mary and her alabaster box. It doesn't matter how many times I hear this story or hear the song, it makes me cry. She realized she had encountered the Lord and worshipped him with everything she had. She didn't care who was looking at her or what they were saying about her. She didn't worry about what it might look like to those that didn't understand. She knew and the Lord knew and that was all that mattered. THAT is all that matters. If your heart is right with God and you have that personal relationship with Him, then don't worry if people talk about how you worship or what kind of church you attend, just keep doing what you are doing to keep that personal closeness with the Lord always. What is right for you may not be right for others and what is right for others may not be right for you. It is up to each of us to work out our own salvation.

Also, if any of you are into buying music downloads for your computer, then be sure that you purchase 'Alabaster Box' by Cece Winans. It is awesome and I guarantee that it will touch you if you enjoy the story.

I Will Not Offer Him a Sacrifice That
That Does Not Cost Me Personal Sacrifice

Mary sacrificed her future for His present presence. What would you give to be saturated in His presence for just thirty seconds? It's time to break your alabaster box.

When Mary went home the night after she broke her alabaster box of brokenness over Jesus, she still smelled like Him. When she lay down to sleep, she still smelled like Him. When she got up the next morning, she still smelled like Him.

Mary invested all that she had for one encounter with Jesus. She embodies the passion that drives God Chasers around the world. We all want to see Him, to sense His presence and draw near in worship and adoration. The more of Him we get, the more of Him we must have. We find ourselves unable to find satisfaction in passionless church protocols-there is a fire in our bones that launches us in a desperate search for His manifest presence.

Are you desperate for the kind of God encounter that goes with you? This is the key: You must break your own alabaster box.

Will you be a Mary, a passionate box-breaker bearing the fragrance of brokenness? First, you must abandon the crowd of voices trying to steal or withhold worship from God in the name of preserving man's program. … The Father is bending over the ramparts of heaven. He hears the irresistible crackle and the tinkle of breaking alabaster boxes… Is that the sound of your heart breaking? An incredible fragrance is filling the atmosphere, and I hear the rumors of His sudden approach.

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